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23.5.07

Baby gave me a huge surprise on Monday.That idiot didnt go to work for like 3 days.Keep cumin up wid so many excuses.Haha..
ANyway, he promised to give me surprise frequently.Amd he did exactly just that on Monday.21 May.
That day was supposed to be us knowing each other better for 1 month, n us being tgt bt nt yet tgt..Complicated,confuse..haha
He didnt tell me anything.Except that he said, "I want all ur time today".And i gave him.
When he came to fetch me, i totally got no idea where he will be bringing me to,and wat he has up his sleeves.=)
Until we reached Changi.. he brought me there to see aeroplanes,bcos i once told him that i love seeing aeroplanes arrive n depart.So sweet of him to rmb everything i said.The best part was.. he told me to put sumtin in the booth.And i when i opened, i saw a bouquet of flowers there.As usual, i almost cried.
But wat he did really shocked me so much..
He took the bouquet of flowers and said " I rmb u said that i have nv officially asked u to b my gf.. Nw im officially asking you, will u b my galfren?" And with that, he kneeled down.. I was so damn touched.I r3eally nv expected him to say and do such things. Wats more, he's like a small silly boi to me.haha..
Nevertheless, im thankful baby.Really thank you.
Its been so long since i last had that feeling.The feeling of being so important to someone important to me.
The kind of feeling he gave me is like.. im living in fairytale.
Mayb bcos, he can read my mind.He knows very well wat i want.. And although we just started, he sumhow give me the feeling like we have known each other for a long time. I feel so comfortable with him.N i hope he is comfortable with me too..=)
He's one amazing guy, one that i know, i will wana hold on for as long as i can..
For 2 weeks, he has been sacrificing his precious sleep just to keep his promise, his promise of spending more time with me.And each time i see him sleeping so soundly, i feel so guilty.I know he has work to do.And im worried for him each time he doesnt have enough sleep.
Once, i went to dragonfly till 2plus, and despite having to work the next day, he came to fetch me.
With him, wat else can i ask for?..

Baby, from my heart, i wana let u noe that though i haven been able to give u alot of confidence, im tryiong hard to stand in ur position and think.Though sumtimes, i may have said things that aren't very nice, but every other nice things i said r true.
I once told u, i might take a long time to recover, a long time to really love u as much u do, u still tried hard.And im touched and thankful for all the things u did. Just like how u finished all the sushis i made even though u r not hungry=).. Just like how u plan ur time and said we will have breakfast every sunday morning despite having not enough rest.Just like how u put in the effort to make me trust u,pick me up from places far from our house despite having to wake up so damn early the next morning.
Im truly blessed for having u.U told me, the thing about us is that we both got hurt so much in our previous relationship.We both didnt trust in relationships again, and thats y.. we both noe how to cherish and appreciate the right one in front of us.I couldn't agree any further.

My baby cousin=)

7:28 AM

9.5.07

Sponge business haven been too good lately.So boring each time i went to work. Xiao gui's group have been going dw to boat quay lately, sponge is really quiet. For almost a week, everyday's sales nv exceed $200.N there goes my commission=(.. haha

Will be goin to JB with pipi , angel n sam this friday.Pipi actually plan to go clubbing at night, bt im meeting baby.. so there goes our partying.. haha

Was off on monday to spend the day with baby. Went to watch spiderman 3, though i wasn't really too keen. Haha, bt anyway, was not bad afterall. The show's duration was pretty long, bot 2hrs plus?.. After the show, went to look for lucas and bear bear in Telok blangah.

Baby promised to bring me to changi airport, but in the end, we end up in changi village-.-"..

Had a long talk with him there.He told me so many things that i never expected him to say. And every single word touched my heart.

I know i may not be able to love him wholeheartedly yet, but im sure i'll b able to soon.I feel so guilty when he told me all those things that night.So much so that my tears jus flow..

Baby driving with his serious look

Stupid act cute face

Anyway, we are going to korea together in July.Thats wat he promised me.=).. And im really looking forward to that day=)

12:56 AM

1.5.07

We'v finally cleared the obstacle in front of us=).. At least, the biggest problem is settled.
Last Monday, baby brought me to PS for movie.The show," Nightmare detective" was such a stupid show.
Through out the whole movie, we were playing rather den watching.Haha..
After that went to mt Faber.Met pipi n Kenny there. Baby and i reached there and waited for them for almost 1 hr!... Why? Bcos they went to their so-called "The highest peak" and couldn't find us there. We were lyk 4 idiots playing hide and seek.. haha..
In the end, kenny managed to find baby's car and eventually, found us.
Was really beautiful when we reached the "highest peak". The scenery was breath taking. Pipi and i were deciding when to go malaysia again.Kenny will bring us there. =)haha..
Went to fetch Lucas after that. Was really glad that upon seeing Lucas, baby held my hand even tighter.Which i thot, we would like feel awkward and uncomfortable. But no, instead, when the 3 of us were in the car, i could tell that baby was relieved that he told Lucas the truth.Otherwise, we would still be like hidding and running away.
Anyway, headed to chill lounge in Central mall.The place was so small, and quiet. Chatted for some time and headed to macdonald's for supper cum breakfast.
Reached home arond 5plus in the morning.
I was really happy that day.In bed,i really ponder over those times i went thru b4 recovering.I was really glad that instead of walking back, which so many times i was tempted to, i forced myslf to walk ahead. Though i told baby that i might not love him yet, but im quite sure i will soon. Though our working time cannot b compromised,bt we'r living beside each other only.Im sure we'll b able to have more time for each other.And i can see that, he is trying hard to squeeze his time for me.
What ever it is, im sure things are gonna turn out well.

11:34 PM