23.1.07
Poor Isaac, seeing him really makes my heart ache.
I cant believe this is actually happening to a baby less then 2 days old..
I cant imagine the pain aunt is going thru and all the suffering baby is going tru.
Ytd went to hospital to see aunt, she looked so depressed. I duno wat to say or do to comfort her, to make her feel better.
All i could say was. " baby will b fine".. She cried, and weak me.. i cried with her.
Everyone was really looking forward to baby's arrival.Y would such thing happen?..
What do they mean by having a blood clog in the liver?.. How dangerous is tat?..
Today, the lab results will be out.
I cross my fingers, pray with god with all my heart and soul, pls let Isaac pull thru,
pls let him pass thru this stage and grow up healthily and happily.
Aunt jess said that, God would'n be so cruel, i believe he isnt too.
He will bless Isaac thru and watch him grow healthily and happily.
Have been so disturbed that i dont really have mood to do anything.
Keep thinking of the baby. I broke the news to aunt jess ytd and she too cried if im nt wrong.
All of us are so upset and frighten becos of this little boii.
Issac,
be strong.
Ur mummy and daddy are waiting for u to make them smile.
Jie jie sarah and samantha are waiting to carry u and buy new toys and clothes for u.
U mus be strong, pull thru and stay healthy.
May God Bless
8:00 PM
16.1.07
O.. I'm going to resign from detox already=(.. I think, i simply dunhaf the choice do i?
I'm really tired and comes the bomb this morning, my boss told me that she doesnt want me to work in her broher's pu anymore as its affecting my day job..
Well well, i guess,i'll just have to give up one and that will definitly be the night life job, cos.. it simply wun be my career in future is'nt it?..
Im beginning to understand what ppl mean by, trust no one except urslf.. Everyone is so damn practical in this world. Aloy bcums the onli reason why i do not wana leave detox..he spoke to me last saturday which made me wana put in effort for this pub that isnt even appreciating me or for the things i'v done.Im not saying im being bias or watsoever, i just felt that, If u are a boss, den pls act lyk one.And aloy shows that he has wat it takes to be someone worth respecting.
Fuck it man, I duno if this is the way adults work, or that im just a bloody idiot naive kiddo that doesnt noe what the fuck's happening.
Its all about making use of each other, all about taking advantage of each other, all about rewards and benefits i get from one person.. Thats trust,love,and life..
Im not goin into details here bcos i dunwana rmb anything lyk this.. Its just anothert lesson learnt, and i'v jus gota grow from it.
Junwei and chester got into macpherson ITE which im sincerely glad for them, at least.. its time they settle down and enuff of playing.. haha..
Angel oso gt into Bishan ITE, .. suddenly , i wana go back to school.. I dunhaf to worry about anything, main concern is how to 'ponteng" .. hahaha=)..
Im beginning to feel that my burden is heavier.O god!!!.. Pls dont do this to me!!..
STill, i believe.. : The going gets tough, The tough gets going!
아자 아자 파이팅!!!
10:05 PM
9.1.07
Let's see, been long time since i blog and i duno wher to start..haha
Celebrated bear's bdae ytd, we were suppose to go exchange, but ended up in detox instead..
haha.. Pipi was the one hu did the psychoing as she wa son duty that day,
she made bear celebrated his bdae there, so she could join in the fun.
Was quite fun last nite, ..
as usual, eric got drunk and bear 1/2 drunk i think..=)
Saw his new gerfren ytd, cant rmb wats her name, cheryl i think?
Anyway, i had somerton at first, and when bear came, chivas..
and bcos it was another customer's bdae ytd.. martell was involved too!..
So, i had a mixture of this and that..
didnt really drink much as i'm working the next day.. left about 12.30am..=)
Im beginning to find my dear boss aloy and eric so cute and sweet..
All 3 bosses promised to open one bottle each for me on my bdae.. wahahah=).
Friday's planning :
Work in tccs
Korean class till 9pm
Detox at 9.30
Party till 3am
Off to dragonfly!..
Met victor on friday in boat quay..
Though he said that he came down to look for me, his purpose was actually to go exchange -.-"!
Im not 3-years old!
Ha.. anyway, ya.. he kept saying bot 2 weeks 2 weeks..
at first, i really got no idea wat he was tokin abot, den i realise..
he meant, 2 weeks to make me fall in love with him.. Lame
I dun see the need y mus he make me fall for him.
Fall, and leave .. tats so practical of guys..
No way will i fall for victor man..
Although, yes.. i dun deny that he is the kind i can ever ask for..
His height, looks, eligiblity...etc..
But, nt when i read "her" blog and realise that,
if i were to fall for this guy too much,
I'm gonna make my life miserable once more..
이게 생이 를 안고 싶었요
저는 그 남자친구가 시로요.
이게 안 고싶었어요!
나는 혼자가안이다
내 친구는 나를 사링해요
Pipi,angel,sammy,joyce,michi 고마워요!
Thats not wat im asking for..
Like i say,
Till now, no one has successfully made me forget chester..
And if one day , there is one..
Im bound to love this person deeply..
thats so practical of gers isnt it?..
Now my main concern is to earn more money,
get my driving license, go to korea..
Others ,.. can wait..
Well well, this post is lengthy like a damn literature textbook..=)
생일죽아함니다!
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SARAH!!
MAY ALL UR WISHES COME TRUE!
8:26 PM
4.1.07
Work was fun fun fun!.. Thogh it is realli tiring, bt im getting use to the "24-hours-is-not-sufficient-" life alr..
Everytime i head to the pub, its alw so exciting and surprising.
New years eve in pub was real happening. Played lyk crazy and even got a little tipsy.
Ah cai bought a martell for us, and since it was winnie's last day,
i tot might as well jus let my hair down..
The results-- all 3 waitress gt drunk.!wahahaha
Pipi n winnie was dead drunk, luckily for me.. i was still sort of able to blend in the crowd.
Saw kim leng at 3rd floor and he smiled..=)
After tat, he came down to second floor to look for me,..
n seeing that i was drunk, he asked me if i was ok and told me to take care..
the best part..
He gave me a "new year cum goodbye" hug.. haha=)
Aloy was cute too.. seeing him so stern and serious always, that nite he was realli high..
N i realise, gosh.. my boss is so damn adorable..
haha..
About 4 am.. when the crowd was almost cleared, fabian n his fren ,"dun wats his name" came down,
i cant stand fabian.. keep tokin bot that nite i slpt at the sofa and went crazy..
But, he's fun chap to b with anyway..
Though im lyk racing against time now, im happy with my everything.
Though gota juggle btw korean studies, day job in tccs and pub,
Im satisfied with my achievements=)..
Have realli slimed down alot bcos of all the late nights and skipping of meals..
which is GOOD!
my cough is getting frm bad to worse. no matter how often i took the medicine,
it jus wun go away..
Im irritated by this damn cough.. causing me to lose my voice.
Nic might b opening another pub in tanjong pagar.. n pipi and i might be
asked to go over to run the pub.. woohoo..
Im gona miss my customers, or i sld say frens in detox..
Oh.. n i finally rebonded my hair again, and got my samsung Z560..
Welcoming my 18th bdae in 2 weeks time with open arms..=)woohoo
Will be celebrating in the pub, which nic promised to celebrate it for me
and oso another celebration at home for families.
I cant imagine how fun would it be that night.. haha=)
1:08 AM
