but I keep your memories???????????????

30.9.06

i miss u..

i really cannot accept or believe that u will change till lykt..

i dun understand..

I really dont..

i noe..u r nt the guy i use to love anymore..

i noe, u r totalli diff frm wat i expect..

But y doesnt the pain seem to go?

Y doesnt..

Y y cant i jus 4get the past n leadmy life once again..

I dreamt of u last nite..

i dreamt that we were back together again..

It realli was so real, so nice..

bt wen i woke up,i realise,

it was all a dream..

Y am i still dreaming of u?.. y am i still holding on to the past..

Y mus i alw b updated of wat u are doin, hw u are living?

It realli realli hurts so much..

so much that,i really ..

wan to forget wat u haf done, all the pain u haf given,

n jus.. wan to b ur baby ger again..

11:23 AM

27.9.06

A Partner,A relationship

" Being in a relationship is beautiful, But being with the wrong partner is stressful "

I fully agree,so do pipi.. it works.. it reflects

Pipi n her bf ok le.. i dun understand..

though i noe i will hurt her saying all this, bt i really dunwan my gf to suffer bcos of a redundent relationship

he simply is not worthy of her.. not a single bit at all..

she could haf a better one.. one hu really is compatible.

one hu really is the right one, or i sld say..hu can gif her beautiful memories,

nt sad or none at all

Thank you god..Thank you really very much..

Im soo glad..

im glad he isnt mine, im glad him no longer his..

I sincerely thank god for this..

Im happy.. bcoz,, nw..i turn n i can smile or laugh at those memories we had..

He lost me..

In the end.. he is the loser..

Ending up wid nth...

I iwll nv forget our memories,n oso all the pain he gave me..

To him, its totally disappointment.

Hatred,Fear,adn Tears..

Use to..............

If i ever haf the chance,

i will tell him..

poor thing,,.. u cant get anything u wan from ppl's heart..

so u resort to deceiving urslf..

he really thinks.. tat, in us, his image is still uphold..

Nah..he is wrong..

the kinda person he is now.. is lyk..

despo fucks..

Begging n crying 4 woman..

No..

i mean hole.

Seeing him lyk this,..

i really pity him..

ANyway... he ask me to go to his hse on sunday..

For birthday party, and to see his mum

in fact,i miss aunty..hehes

Ernest say that he trust me..

2:08 AM

22.9.06

Im all alone nw in the ofiice..

Shit man..

Waiting for the gals to get ready b4 meetin them..

As usual..

Its Ladies outing today..

Poor michii.. she thinks that she is suffering from food poisoning

after going pasar malam wid jack ytd..

hahax..

i told her..

No la..

Did you eat any thing jack cooked?

So.. michi isnt joining us today..

Which left us with...

sarah,pipi,samy,angel..

But nevertheless,its still gona b fun..

Hmm.. iv decided wat i wana sing alr..

Hahax..

Ytd had a long chat wid the gals n ernest..

So tired..

Haix..

Pipi n angel lyk..

duno wat's happening..

N their turn to face relationship probs..

Luckily..mine's over..

10:13 PM

20.9.06

Dreams n Reality

I will study hard to make more money, den u will be my tai tai with ur car,ur hse and S$5000..hahax.. so sweet.all i can say.. Hmm.. He is suppose to be all i could ask for.. hmm.. Nt bad looking, Kinda rich,Ambitious and.. everything i ask for in my dream guy.But, y isit the feeling..its not right?. Omg..wats happening to me?..Y cant i accept him..?.I noe,i noe if i do, will really be "happy"

Shit..

Ernest is sweet.

I duno..the other day he msg me "

Nites gal.

It really...really was lyk chester.

Really exactly the same.

I duno the feeling is??..

Is he just a substitute?

Or, am i really having feelings for him?

I m nt sure..

Which is y i did not tell him anything.

I jus told him"

Im honestly, not ur type.

I m not all of ur type..

H easked me"How do u noe?"

I told him ,matter of fact

Ask chester.

The post in my other caused chaos!!

I dun understand y they so bloody selfish..its lyk.

come on,this is my damn blog..wat has it got to do wid any of u?

I Hate him.I really do..

It s lyk hw angel ffel 4 eugene chua.HATE!

Its so weird..really..

When 2 ppl r in love, they r everything to one another.

But wen the relationship ends,

We try ways and means to hurt the other one.

"Living happier is sweet revenge to ur partner"

Thats oso hurting.

Life is Weird

Love is absurd.

Speaking of angel, i feel that she is suffering from some kinda stree or depression lately

I noe.. bcoz i use to be lykt..

Lyk her.. goin crazy over the slightest things..

I told her "we'll haf a good tok on friday"..

I think.. all of us need a good talk.

All of us

Sam,i noe..she is very upset over the matter.

I saw her hp calender.

"Pls kill me.Gary,pls take me away."

It scared me.

Really.. i almost cried.

I noe..the other time, we were having hell..

I wun point fingers at anyone.. But i noe..

I noe hu is responsible 4 it.I noe..

Funny isnt it?

Sometimes,we get so tired of life that we think of ending it.

But wen morning comes, after a slp..

The fear and thinking goes away.

Nothing last forever.

Same goes for unhappiness..

Im havin korean test tml..gota study hard.

O ya.. he change alot afer cumin out.

Hopefully,his thinking will change after goin NS.

Kelvin say they will!!

Hahax..

Till then..

7:56 PM

7.9.06

Its not gonna b lykt..

Im sure its not gonna b..

But, i cant deceive myslf..

I realli cant.

I noe....

I noe the truth..

He lyks u..

He lyks my blood sister.

Wat am i suppose to do?

I duno, I duno..

Does it hurt?

I duno..

I nv tot in my life tat this would happen to me.

I nv dream tat it will ever happen to me.

God..

I noe..

U are testing me..

U are giving me this test.

I noe..

Juz wen i have moved on totalli,

Y...........

Y mus things turn out this way??

Y isit her? Y isit my sister?

I tried so hard.. No one knows,

Bt i noe.. i tried so hard.. Bt this is wat i get..

Im done with it..its enuff..

10:27 PM

6.9.06

Sugar Rolls

Having coffee with another person is sharing each other's soul..

I came across this phrase ytd n tot " Nah, this isnt true"..

If this is, den having lunch together is sharing each others body?

Hahax..

Anyway, philip was released ytd n ya.. he msg me..

Hahax.. its amazing hw sumone can change so much..

For good or Bad?

I duno, I cant comment..

All i noe is ,he is indeed very quiet..

Hmm.. At this point of time,

Im eating my water melon again..n suddenly, i feel lyk having sugar rolls again..

Ok, im greedy.., i dun deny... hahax

I will start dieting tml..

Ytd,i asked him" y didnt u reply my letter ?

He told me " I duno, coz tat time u told me u gt a boyfren"..

Hahax..

Hmm.. wel;l, i told him , having a boyfren doesnt mean i cant haf boi-frens..

Bsides, im single again..

Hahax..

This morning, he msg me...

I duno, the kinda feeling is lyk.. Its been a long time.. *sigh*

Anyway.. my face had a break out again, n i jus cant seem to get rid of the big pimple on my nose

N,i hate it!!

Aunt cindy told me that " Hey,tat is a fortune pimple.. "

Hahax.. i didnt noe pimple can also b considered as "Fortune".

Peter gang came to office today n wow..

Tough he is old, he looks great, ya.. charming in fact..

I noe he owns a vineyard in Australia..

Rich Bastard..

Hahax..

N..we had meeting again.With all those things lyk " 3R is our baby,we will do well together"

Hmm.. i do agree tat 3R is our baby..

Ytd, aunt jess ni were on msn chatting,

She was tellin me :" sarah, u mus study hard 4 ur korean, i promise i will find u a job here,

n u can fulfill ur dreams."

Ahhh.. i realli feel so fortunate.

So wat if i dun haf a guy, i mean.. Life isnt all abot Love.

Sam is rite.

I have almose everything.

Im bk to work n munching my sugar rolls..

till then

10:32 PM

4.9.06

*Nth* Last Forever

Hmm.. time flies.. Philip is gonna be released tml n ya.. im excited ..hahax.. Hmm.. am eating water melon nw..after eating 2 sugar rolls..=)..hehex..

Bt, im on diet.. n is didnt tk a proper lunch amn.. hahax.. so its nt considered alot rites?Hmm.. i was jus looking thru frenster wen i came across a few gals whom "they " noe..

hahax.. suddenly, i haf this urge to ask kelvin : If time can reverse, hw old do u wana b again?.. He laughed..hahax..

For me.. hw i wish i can b lyk 13 or 14 again.. those times were the best.. Hahax.. Dun haf to worry about money or guys.. :" oops.. its boiis"..hahax.. N things jus seem to swift pass,leaving all the smiles behind.And.. i oso dun deny.. tat 13,14 yr old.. relationships are the best..hahax.. Haaa... anyway, im older nw.. n tats final.. i cant go bk again.. Ever ther's sumone hu asked me : If u can choose ur sex again.. will u rather b a Gal or Boi?..I use to ans: Boii.. Bcoz last time young ma.. think if can b boii, den can flirt gals..woots..hahax..Now.. I wana b a gal.. I will still choose to b a gal.. Bcoz, being a gal, i will b loved instead of loving. wat am i sayin?

Hahax.. i duno..I think im crazy.. Am goin to school later to pay school fees. Wootx.. classes starting soon.. yeah..

Im so glad im Sarah, My life is peaceful n full of *Smiles*.. I dunhaf family probs n so on.. Dunhaf to worry bot job, onli worry bot nt being able to hit target.Though i went thru hard times in the past.. its over.So,i always believe :

Nothing will stay unhappy forever.=)

10:55 PM

A lover, A fren

Everything is back to normal.. and Im so glad..hahax.. Pipi has reconciled wid her darling, sam is on her way to tasting a new sugar relationship..Angel is obviously much better after a huge cry.. Michii.. she is simply just satisfied wid being her Mrs Jill.=)
Well.. recently.. i'v seen alot of ppl on the streets.. hugging,kissing bla bal.. its so sweet.. hahax.. Bt, no special excuse ya=)
Hmm.. we gals did haf a great time on sat..michii's bdae.. Baby, is my happy bdae song in 3 languages cute n sweet? Hehex=)..
" Sang il chu ka hamida"=)..

Hmm.. hahax.. in fisherman.. wen i ask sam n angel " Do u feel lyk having a boyfren now?" after seeing michii n jack lovey dovey.. Obvious wats the outcome.. Angel : "No.. Nt at all"..
Sam Tok : " Yes!! "..hahax.. i realli laughed!!..
Hmm.. well.. 4 me.. Hahax.. " No.. Not at all ".. , "Yes ".. Both mayb..
I will only wan a boyfren if im certain he is wat i want.. Otherwise.. No thanks.. hahax..
Anyway.. Classes starting soon.. n ya.. im very excited..I promise to study hard n fulfill my dreams soon..

12:35 AM